





For anyone who might be interested, today is officially my last day of nursing Nate. He turned one on April 21 and I've been trying to slowly wean him for the last two weeks. The problem is, he won't drink cow's milk and I've been afraid he won't get the nutrition he needs if he's not nursing. I've tried whole milk, soy milk, formula, even milk with a squirt of chocolate syrup in it! He rejects everything. He only wants breastmilk or water. At our well baby doctor's appointment today, I explained my dilemma to my doctor and she told me to go cold turkey on him because the slow weaning is confusing him. Why would he drink cow's milk if he knows the good stuff is coming? So with mixed feelings, I nursed him tonight for the very last time.
I feel a huge sense of relief that I am no longer nursing. I can wear dresses again, and non nursing-friendly shirts and undergarments. Matt can feed the baby anytime. I'll have so much time now that I previously spent in the rocker nursing.
At the same time I feel a huge sense of loss. Where is my little tiny baby that depends on me for his nutrition? I'm going to miss the countless hours that we got to cuddle and stare into each other's eyes. I'm going to miss being able to provide the most comforting thing in Nate's world. No matter what happened - a fall, a shot - nursing always made it instantly better. It's the only time in the day that my little explorer wanted to curl up and cuddle with me for a while.



















Here is Donna and her granddaughter Aeryn at Josiah's 2nd Birthday party at Kailua Beach.
Barbara got an amazing arm workout toting these two around together for a while. This chick is ripped!
Makapuu Lighthouse hike with Brandon and Todd.
Mommy was there, too! I like this picture because Nate is flashing the "Thumbs Up."
Nate's first campout at nine months old.
Matt actually slept in the big tent and Nate and I slept in this regular one. The regular one was a bit too crowded for all three of us.
New Year's Eve Party #1 at the Wilkinsons with Jimmy, Blake and Ali (Blake's girlfriend).
New Year's Eve Party #2 at the Lims with me, Jon (holding Nate), Brian, Keri (holding Zoe), Ella, Matt (holding Jessie), and Jeremy (holding Tyler).
The 5th and 6th graders (and one little sister) about to blow their volcanos up...
HUGEST poop of all time. HAPPIEST baby about it.
Straight to the tub. SOOOO proud of himself.